Gay Book 'The Locker'
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stop wanting to be with him or would it not make any difference?
Sitting there staring up at the sky, he knew that this wasn’t exactly how it went when he
had dreamed about this time, about being with someone like Dakota. Reality
was a lot different and he sat there, confused by what he had thought it
would be like and what it had been like. He knew he cared for Dakota, that
there was something about the way he felt each time his eyes would lock onto
Dakota’s that made his heart skip a few beats as well, and yet it wasn’t
quite how he had dreamed it. He never had thought about that pain for
instance, and he hadn’t thought either of the need for protection and how
it seemed so difficult to keep in mind, to have to take the time to use it,
and he wondered if he could keep it hard enough, would he suddenly go limp
because of it? What about Dakota, how did he manage to keep that weapon of
his so hard and still take the time to slip that plastic cover on? Was it
something you got by doing it often or what? So much to think about and yet
despite all those thoughts, the primary thought still seemed to be his fear
of failing Dakota.
In some ways he thought that maybe Dakota felt that way too, that maybe Dakota was just as
scared, just as uncertain and yet he seemed so confident, so casual in how
he had done it all, planning to have the condom in reach, planning even the
time when to go for it, which wasn’t how Noah thought love making was. He
always believed it was a sudden burst of desire and not something you just
planned, or was it like the boy scouts, just a matter of being ready, being
prepared? He shook his head a little, staring back around at the simple
little tree house and he wondered if Dakota had ever done it up here with
others, or was that why they were even here? Could Dakota have brought him
up here so he could tell him that they could just be friends, or worse?
Dakota “My brother died of aids, did you know that?”
Noah hadn’t even noticed that Dakota had moved up to sit
beside him. Both of them had their feet dangling off the edge of the
platform. He turned to stare at the boy that had

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