What had he done that made Brian think he would be better off with some old fuck?
The gurgling made him shake a bit as he more or less stumbled in and checked the refrigerator to see what there was left to eat. Looking inside he couldn’t see shit, the small light suddenly glaring to the point where everything was a blur, yet he knew it wasn’t the light but the tears in his eyes.
Fuck! He yelled as he slammed the door. Anger had once more risen up inside as he realized what a sap he was being. Screw Brian he thought as he grabbed his jacket and car keys and headed out. No way was he going to just mope around all night, or let that jerk make him sick.
He needed food and as it was close to the end of the month he knew he wasn’t going to eat out, so he headed his small used car towards the grocery store a few blocks away. As he drove his mind continued to rage against Brian. How could he be so fucking cruel he thought. Christ he had given him a nice home, cooked meals most of the time not to mention the other stuff.
It was like suddenly he was making a list of all he had done and checking it off against all he had received. His lips were set tight as he concentrated on driving but at the back of his mind, the list grew in size. There wasn’t just that he had paid all the bills but all the times when Brian wanted to go out, to party and he had gone too. Didn’t seem to matter that he had to work the next day, Brian wanted to go so they would go.
Maybe that was his problem. Instead of always doing what Brian had wanted, he should have said No a few more times. Maybe then Brian wouldn’t have taken him so much for granted, or maybe he would have left sooner? Well sooner wouldn’t have been much better, though in some ways maybe. Christ how could he be so callous? He had spent two years loving the guy and in less than a few hours he was beginning to hate him.
Can I help you find something?
The voice startled him as he didn’t even seem to realize that he was already in the grocery store, just staring blankly inwards. He shook his head as he found himself looking at the blonde who had spoken. In that instant he felt the lump in his pants too as this wasn’t some geeky looking guy.
Uh sorry, uh, no I don’t think so.
The young man looked at him and a small smile curled around his light pink lips. For one brief instant Brett saw a flick of the tongue moisten them and then dart back into the well formed mouth. God, what a hunk Brett was thinking as he wished he could think of something, anything to say.
